On average, it takes two months for a new behaviour to become automatic.
It’s 11:37pm, and I haven’t published this blog post yet. I got distracted with another project, and here we are.
I will publish before midnight. But I wish I’d given myself more time.
This particular feeling lingers with a bitter familiar aftertaste.
Many of us taste this feeling often.
Two months is a tremendous amount of time for someone with an attention deficit disorder to routinely achieve something.
I’ve only just managed to do this with early mornings (well, at least three early mornings a week), and it’s required taking on a huge amount of social responsibility to keep me accountable.
I can’t write consistently or get out of bed unless I know that someone else will be impacted if I don’t.
I still find this very silly. But there’s no telling that to my zombie brain when it has a trigger finger poised over my snooze button.
I think this is why I’ve always favoured tasks and jobs which commend impulsivity over large scale organisation.
I thrive in places where quick thinking and dynamic problem solving are required to float, and I flounder when I think I have a month to do something, or when I don’t think anyone else really minds if I’m not working.
I believe this is why I first dropped out of uni.
I believe this is why I burned through seven jobs in three years, but wasn’t fired from any.
I believe this is why it has taken so much effort to structure my life in a fulfilling way.
If you recognise this feeling, the lurching of anticipated regret as a deadline looms closer, I beg you to stop whatever it is you’re doing, and ask yourself this question;
What could I do right now, which I’ll be proud I did tomorrow morning?
And do it.
It’s 11:48. I’m calling it a night. If there are typos, I’m sorry.
I promise I’ll wake up proud I published this anyway.